Up late and trying to get back to sleep

 

Cookies and Milk? Have not had these yet. Have not bought them either. I’m told they are good and tempting. They look like Pecan Sandies type of thing… I like homemade oatmeal cookies. Some say a guy my size should not be eating cookies. That’s probably true. I had a Pecan Sandies phase back when I was a bachelor at my bachelor pad. About that time I had a thing for baloney and cheese on Wonder Bread and Velveeta Shells and Cheese or Kraft Deluxe… packaging influenced a lot of my choices then. The colors on the box were mostly the same. 

I tried retail therapy later on. Now and then this would hold back food cravings. It can get out of control too. I do like to eat. Never been big on exercise unless it was fun. Not a fan of competition sports personally. I did enjoy sitting in the stands with a Dodger Dog and a two bagger peanut pack way back when. Steve Garvey, Ron Cey, Don Drysdale Brady Bunch Episode. I played a few sports growing up too.

I have my green bike waiting in the garage. Looks sad. Got it a few years back when I did this liquid diet thing my doctors suggested for me. Did that one about three times. Lost all the wait most every time too. Got all kinds of compliments after I took off the weight. My mom still has the picture of me from back then hanging up at her house. That one and my wedding one from my second time on the shake diet.

So the third and last time I did this shake diet I bought a new bike to ride which after awhile became a coat rack. We had some class discussion on reasons we eat. I have had a therapist so I thought “hey this will help” I soon figured out we all have different reasons for over eating and some of us had much bigger things happening. I figured out that this shake thing was made by a big company and was designed to get you coming back and going at it over and over.

I’m still too big to ride my bike now. We have really beautiful paths here. Sometimes I think I might get there. Sometimes I think I can. 

I wonder what tomorrow will bring? Today was a challenge.

I’m trying fitness now. Don’t care if mom puts up a new picture of me but I would like to ride down that path one day.

Maybe walk it. I will never forget anyone that helped me with  physical fitness. Especially if the help was given with love. 

I had a challenging day a got news a relative had to have a surgery today. I knew it was not just me today. I said some prayers for them and I’m trying to remember people besides me might be dealing with worse things than not wanting to exercise. 

I’m grateful to have people helping me and I do try to give back when I can. 

I have work to do in the morning so good night and thank you for reading. God Bless You All. -Scoocher